Standing Still

If we keep
all this going
how long before you're gone?

If I break all the walls
how long before we fall?

While I am stalling
this is dying.

While what this was is collecting dust
your brushing off
all my attempts
at shaking it back into the air.

If I keep
all this
just the way it is
I'll never get back to what I had
or where we were headed.

And this
this is
not all it looks
to be

more weight
than wealth
and more a sink
than a fountain.

How long
before it all dies?

How long
before it all
takes on its own life
out of my control
out of our grasp

If we keep all this going
where does it eventually stop?

Losing sight

Looking for a way-- to be me
not like I am now

A way to not have to survive
but rather thrive

Not to rush to work
like I am now
just so I can buy food

water, electri-
city, several flavors of gas
and the latest distraction

Rather I want
to labor over real work,
in love, paint, clay, words-- or any art
or just passion
even be it in-- just-- sitting still
like I am not now

so long as it is alive
a wonderland
I don't just-- wonder about
like I am now

To be a bird
eating the best seed and flying high
not stealing bread in a fast food drive through
like I am now