after awhile

I care

less
after awhile

I fall

harder
after awhile

but

I feel less
after awhile

I love

more and less
after awhile

I hope

more
after awhile

to dig

out of this
after awhile

I stand

a little less
after awhile

but hope

a little more
after awhile

and dream

more
after awhile

but sleep

too much
after awhile

to make up

for all the loss
after awhile

fogpuzzle: Grasp

fogpuzzle: Grasp

soon to be

the dawn

gray

summer
coast

cold

like fall

gray

with breaks
of afternoon
warmth

you say
we

don't know

you say
we substitute

and that that
lacks all your perks

and yes

that is the point

there are so few left
to feed your machine

to serve
for the reward
that has grown
thin

and with it
our ease to resist
thick

our ease
to drop down
the chains
and run free

those high
have so far to fall
especially as the herd
is culled

the dawn

is it?

or dusk

soon to be
for sure
and forever

broken
hoping to be
found

mended
hoping
to be hurt

hoping
to get
the attention
that it brings

hoping
I have something left
to give
when I am again
a lover

meaning it
being nothing else
bones free

bones free
of those things to do
that are never done

the freedom
that drives betrayal

and
the strongest loyalty
all
the same

broken
hoping

broken
hoping to be

broken
hoping to be
found

hoping
for sun

hoping to shine

in the mirror

and in your memory

hoping
I am to others
half
of what I want to be

hoping
I can be
and mean
so much

hoping
I have
built

rather
than taken

knowing
I have tried

and that this
like life

will end

never knowing

the whole truth

and
nothing
but.