need

when's the last time
you stayed
with something
you knew was all wrong
but filling a certain need

when's the last time
you lived that kind of lived

that kind of lived
that is a becoming
no matter the cost

safe enough
you know you'll live through
but be forever warped
yet well so

all the ready
to go crazy
so long as it takes you far

far from here
and all the little things you had

goodbye
and hello
all wrapped up
in a night and one good morning

I've not
in a long long time
but seen this other side

this other side
where the years add up
and really mean something
more

more than any
impulse could ever pluck from the ether
no matter how ethereal the lighting
might be