Put Away

I keep getting
put away
fully loaded

Ready to go off
at any moment

or be jammed
up and silent
when most needed

How do I measure
alright
All right

No more smoke
to guide
the emergencies

A sharp
numb
calm

Hurts
But does not raise
couches

Living annoyance
Like a bussing black fly
But one that stays in the other room

Please unload
Or drop
and start over
I keep echoing

and unfortunately
listening like I am telling

And so
here I am
on loop.