need

when's the last time
you stayed
with something
you knew was all wrong
but filling a certain need

when's the last time
you lived that kind of lived

that kind of lived
that is a becoming
no matter the cost

safe enough
you know you'll live through
but be forever warped
yet well so

all the ready
to go crazy
so long as it takes you far

far from here
and all the little things you had

goodbye
and hello
all wrapped up
in a night and one good morning

I've not
in a long long time
but seen this other side

this other side
where the years add up
and really mean something
more

more than any
impulse could ever pluck from the ether
no matter how ethereal the lighting
might be

Choking

choking on a dinner
a million would kill to have

what a waste
me and the bite

got bricks and
more to wall me in
and all the good I've ever stolen

so easy to stand tall
when you have no idea how short
from honest
and good you are

I stand very tall
but less than yesterday

maybe there is more
in the less I thought I'd have
if I did different

maybe
someday
we'll see
but today with uncertain emotions
I'm still choking on a dinner
so many could make use of

loving the cans and garbage disposals
that take all the guilt away
and leave me clean

what a wonderful priledge
to walk so well
and true
with eyes closed

what a wonderful
fully
fucked world
we walk along