I've already...

I've
already lived
half a life
twice as long
as anyone should.

I should finally,
if even on the eve
be ready to be me
and only me.

Twice the time of half the heart
fixes nothing
but desire and insecurity.

Still I only crawl
as now I am less me
and more the puzzle I fit into

The father, brother
lover, artist, mudslinger
plant freak, what ever

finally getting naked
shedding all the things
I would have been
I am left
with just what I am

If you can hold your core
your you
the expectations erode
and one in awhile you can stand up