Little Deaths

Little deaths
hoping
on balance
I use them well,
creating ground for as many births.

Looking for
many new starts,
not to their end.

But really I fear
the doors I see
whether open or closed
lead to now solid walls.

Little deaths
falling here and there
some for good need
for one over another.

Hoping I've got the scale
set right.

So hard
to know how
to weigh anything with so few
books setting me loose.

So many holding
me down
and in place
humble,

as I should be
but not completely
right.

Little deaths
eventually
lead us to an end
or rebirth

no matter how
hard we try to follow
or avoid

can't
stop
being
what
I am.

But can loose
a little piece
here

and replace
it there

to get
to
a new
where.